Look · how · pretty · she · is

I'm at school right now and I'm supposed to be in science doing a test but since I asked I am taking the test on monday. yea. lol. I'm in a really bad mood right now. I'm really upset about me and heather. see we are supposed to be going out but she never says hi to me and when I hang out with her at lunch she never talk to me. I really want to go out with sam but I can't break up with heather. we've been going out for like two days and it already sucks. I really need t talk to her but I can never get enough courage to call her and say we need to break up. mehhhh.

I don't anyone except Sam reads my livejournal. I don't know if anyone knows aobut it. Oh well. I just need a place to vent and if no one reads I don't care. It's not like I need input to make me happy.

I had another lj but I never posted in it. It was called Deathinhiding. I was really depressed at that time and so most of the entries are depressing. You are welcome to read it but i don't know how many of you will like it. I can't believe I was that depressed. Well atleast I'm not anymore.

I'm not really sure why but I hate to eat in front of people. Can anyone explain this to me? I hate it. I have so much trouble with it at school. I can't eat lunch unless I am like sitting somewhere where no one can see me. This mainly sucks because I usually follow my friends around and so I never eat and then I seem anorexic to myself. I assure you I'm not anorexic it's just I don't want to be seen eating. I always think that people are thinking things like:
"Oh my gosh she's so fat, she doesn't need to eat anything" or
"Wow she doesn't need to be eating that she should eat like a damn slald or something"
What is wrong with me? Can anyone help me? If you know something please comment and tell me. Thank you.

well i had another one of these but i never use is so i decided to make a new one. i'm getting kinda bored with xanga and i'm just pissed off at myspace so i guess this my vent for now. some of the stuff i write in here you may not agree and some stuff you may find offensive but this journal is for me and i don't care what others think of it.